Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Buried in baggy!

This morning as I sit here having my morning tea, I think about getting ready for work. I think about the "endless" possibilities that hang in my closet. Ok, I'm kidding, there are no "endless" possibilities there. I have very few clothes, actually. 

The main reason I have so few clothes is discouragement. The fear and aggravation from clothes shopping has kept me from an ample wardrobe to fit my ample self. The feelings I get from walking into a dressing room are disgust and anger. Disgust at how I look and anger at myself for letting myself get out of control. I can not stand to try things on knowing they will not fit.

Lane Bryant is too big, every other store is too small. I am tired to buying things that fit around my stomach to end up having super baggy legs. And I am tired of buying things to fit my legs an having an entire dozen "muffin tops" hanging over the waist. I am tired of hiding behind stretchy pants or sweats, and over-sized t-shirts and baggy hoodies. I want to walk into a store and try on whatever I want. I am tired of not having stylish clothing because nothing looks right. 

Ok, rant over! Enjoy your day. 

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

New Beginnings!

I have thought for a long time about writing a blog. I wasn't sure where to begin or who would actually want to read what I had to say. Low and behold, I would have an experience this past week that would change my thinking forever. I will get back to that soon enough.

First a little about me, my name is Jenn and I have been struggling with my weight for almost my whole life. I spent the last 5 years working so many hours that I did not have time to think about me and my need to lose weight. Not just because I don't like how I look and how I hate trying things on, but for my health as well. 

I decided about 6 months ago that I really needed to do something. I began to consider things I could do to help myself. Being new to Brooklyn, I wasn't sure where to start. I went searching online an began to check out the weight loss blogs, considering options and seeing what works for others. Now, mind you, I am not obese but I am definitely overweight. And that's where the idea for my blog came from...I am round. There are no two ways about it. I have skinny little chicken legs but a round belly reminiscent of Santa. If you remember the Weeble Wobbles, the Weebles wobbled but they didn't fall down. Well, lose the legs and I am a Weeble shaped woman. I dread shopping, and it doesn't matter the occasion either. I can never find anything that fits even remotely well. 

I have read so many blogs that inspired me. I thought, if these women could do it so could I. I started exercising and eating better and drinking oceans of water. Holy moly, the weight was coming off! Then it happened...THE PLATEAU! Nothing was happening, I was trying but I saw no change. I deviated from my plan and was miserable. 

I continued to read blogs and keep up with the progress of others. I still follow these bloggers now, but I was feeling unmotivated. I was lost, and confused, and unhappy, and worst of all...still overweight!

So, back to what changed my mind. On September 26th, I participated in a 5k race called Tunnel to Towers. It is a run/walk in honor of Steven Siller, a FDNY fire fighter who ran from the Brooklyn side of the Battery Tunnel to the World Trade Center towers. Now, this is not my story to tell but  you can read about this hero's story at I knew one of the most inspirational weight loss journey bloggers, Sheryl, would be there. Having spoken to her on Twitter, I said I would try to meet up with her. 

With the huge turnout I never thought in a MILLION years that I would find her. As I headed to the UPS trucks to find my bag, I saw a familiar face. There she was! In the flesh! Now I know it sounds silly but she is truly an inspiration. But it gets better, standing with Sheryl was Trixie, another awesome weight loss blogger.

Together, these women are hugely responsible for my change in mindset on the spot. The showed me that Weight Watchers can work for you and that goal weight is only an obstacle in your own mind. You have to get out and do something about it. So, this week I am signing up for Weight Watchers and the Y.

Thank you ladies! You are both awesome. And thanks to whomever might be reading this. I hope that you continue to read as I continue my weight loss journey.